This morning we went to a service at a church we had never attended and listened to a man I had never heard of. Funny, he was speaking to me personally. How did he know I would be there? Isn't God just the coolest?
He was convicting me on the feelings I have been having this weekend. We have been hearing from the antsy sellers of the property we are trying to buy. We were even given an ultimatum this morning before we left for church. My first reaction is to do whatever they want - now! Just secure the property! I even know in my head that it is probably not the right way to handle it, but that is what I want to do. After being spoken to directly this morning, I am re-resolved to wait it out. I think this is about more than us getting this property. I think this is about us learning to trust God. I think this is about relinquishing control and the desire to "make" things work out when we feel stressed or pressured. I still believe God wants us to have this property. But I also believe that he wants to get it for us. He wants us to let Him get it for us as a growing experience for our faith.
Let me tell you, this is hard. I want that place and I want it yesterday. Last week even. But I want to trust God in a way that I have never been able to do before. I want to see what He can do for me without my "help". I want to not just believe in Him, but to believe Him.
Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief.
We covet prayers for a good and quick resolution to the problems at hand. I fully understand the concerns of the sellers, but we also have to look out for ourselves. We are currently waiting for the appraisal to be done and to hear from the finance company - who is waiting on the appraisal. We just need some things to start happening this week.